So it’s really funny how I
had alternative classes for two whole weeks to finish the first output
I’m supposed to submit for the class. You might be wondering, no.
There’s nothing funny about that. Well, here’s the funny part: I
finished everything my teacher gave me two weeks for in one day!
The requirement of the output was to visit a school and observe their learning resources (computer labs, science labs, libraries, and so on..) and finish about 20 pages in our class workbook. I had no idea which school to go to for the observation ever since my teacher mentioned the requirement so I kept putting it off, thinking I’ll worry about it later. (I should really stop doing this!) As to my surprise, ‘later’ came sooner than I expected. Before I knew it, it was already Tuesday and I had gotten nothing done ever since the two weeks my professor gave me! Still, I remained calm, thinking a school would drop out of the sky or something.
I realized that time was ticking and I better do something because it wasn’t gonna happen by itself. My only option was to go back to the high school I graduated from to observe. If you knew me, you’d know I’m not very good with asking for favors. I don’t like the idea of begging a teacher to let me observe when I knew it was my mistake of not asking for permission earlier. Observations are a hassle to all schools because it can really disrupt their lesson and the teachers get too conscious of how they act in class. However, my observation was just for bulletin board displays around campus and the school’s learning resources, so I wouldn’t be disrupting any class. (phew!)
Before I got out of my car, I whispered a prayer to ask for God’s help. I prayed that he bring success to my observation without me needing to lie to allow our principal to let me take pictures and get her signature. It just came into my heart before I had even thought of it. Before I prayed, I thought I would just twist my words a little so that she would no doubt allow me to do what I needed to do.
It was such a blessing that God gave me the strength to ask him not to allow my lips to tell a lie even if it meant risking the entirety of my requirement.
As I walked inside, I was so nervous! Everything looked the same in my old school but it didn’t feel like home anymore. :( I hadn’t met the people I thought I would be meeting so I felt like a stranger inside that institution. It made me realize that no matter how much I thought the place itself is what made my school home for me, it didn’t. It was the people there who brought the feeling of love, acceptance and warmth in the hearts of the students, which was actually the real home I was looking for.
(Getting back to my dilemma..) I was walking towards the principal’s office and there I saw two of my old friends from the lower batches! They were graduating this year and I was so happy to hear from them again. We weren’t that close before (they were closer to my best friend, she’s the reason why we’re friends, actually) but they helped me with everything! They were with me to ask for permission from the principal and she signed my workbook right away! (The signature is used to validate that you actually observed in a school and didn’t make everything up) They were with me throughout my whole observation, and I felt a lot less like a stranger now.
They were telling me about which section they were in, which teachers they had now, and I could totally relate to everything because those were the same teachers and sections I was in when I was in their level.
It feels so weird to talk to people and have them claim my old section during my 4th year as their own. (My possessive side again, I guess!) It just makes me feel like everything we have in this life is borrowed. Nothing is ours. I was feeling a bit sad about that, but while I was reflecting, I realized that it’s actually a beautiful thing.
I was thinking that when something is so beautiful, may it be a place, a section, a teacher, or just a feeling, why would you want nobody else to witness its beauty? I guess I was just being selfish when I felt like those memories were mine to keep. And it’s a natural thing to be selfish. But I thank God that he allows me to go beyond what is natural and reach for a state of mind that is not of this world— a state of mind that grows closer to his each day.
Another thing I realized throughout this cramming episode of mine was that I didn’t deserve any of the success I had received. I planned to lie (or even manipulate) to get my way, I didn’t do my work right away like God instructs us to (which is what made for all of this stress to happen in the first place), and I was seriously thinking of asking someone to forge the signature in case I wasn’t able to observe in a school. I really (really) really didn’t deserve any of the success I had received, yet He gave it to me anyway. Amazing, isn’t it?
This was grace. As I move forward in my walk with Christ, I realized that that stressful Tuesday was a great blessing in disguise.
God showed me how much a whispered prayer can change everything. :)
The requirement of the output was to visit a school and observe their learning resources (computer labs, science labs, libraries, and so on..) and finish about 20 pages in our class workbook. I had no idea which school to go to for the observation ever since my teacher mentioned the requirement so I kept putting it off, thinking I’ll worry about it later. (I should really stop doing this!) As to my surprise, ‘later’ came sooner than I expected. Before I knew it, it was already Tuesday and I had gotten nothing done ever since the two weeks my professor gave me! Still, I remained calm, thinking a school would drop out of the sky or something.
I realized that time was ticking and I better do something because it wasn’t gonna happen by itself. My only option was to go back to the high school I graduated from to observe. If you knew me, you’d know I’m not very good with asking for favors. I don’t like the idea of begging a teacher to let me observe when I knew it was my mistake of not asking for permission earlier. Observations are a hassle to all schools because it can really disrupt their lesson and the teachers get too conscious of how they act in class. However, my observation was just for bulletin board displays around campus and the school’s learning resources, so I wouldn’t be disrupting any class. (phew!)
Before I got out of my car, I whispered a prayer to ask for God’s help. I prayed that he bring success to my observation without me needing to lie to allow our principal to let me take pictures and get her signature. It just came into my heart before I had even thought of it. Before I prayed, I thought I would just twist my words a little so that she would no doubt allow me to do what I needed to do.
It was such a blessing that God gave me the strength to ask him not to allow my lips to tell a lie even if it meant risking the entirety of my requirement.
As I walked inside, I was so nervous! Everything looked the same in my old school but it didn’t feel like home anymore. :( I hadn’t met the people I thought I would be meeting so I felt like a stranger inside that institution. It made me realize that no matter how much I thought the place itself is what made my school home for me, it didn’t. It was the people there who brought the feeling of love, acceptance and warmth in the hearts of the students, which was actually the real home I was looking for.
(Getting back to my dilemma..) I was walking towards the principal’s office and there I saw two of my old friends from the lower batches! They were graduating this year and I was so happy to hear from them again. We weren’t that close before (they were closer to my best friend, she’s the reason why we’re friends, actually) but they helped me with everything! They were with me to ask for permission from the principal and she signed my workbook right away! (The signature is used to validate that you actually observed in a school and didn’t make everything up) They were with me throughout my whole observation, and I felt a lot less like a stranger now.
They were telling me about which section they were in, which teachers they had now, and I could totally relate to everything because those were the same teachers and sections I was in when I was in their level.
It feels so weird to talk to people and have them claim my old section during my 4th year as their own. (My possessive side again, I guess!) It just makes me feel like everything we have in this life is borrowed. Nothing is ours. I was feeling a bit sad about that, but while I was reflecting, I realized that it’s actually a beautiful thing.
I was thinking that when something is so beautiful, may it be a place, a section, a teacher, or just a feeling, why would you want nobody else to witness its beauty? I guess I was just being selfish when I felt like those memories were mine to keep. And it’s a natural thing to be selfish. But I thank God that he allows me to go beyond what is natural and reach for a state of mind that is not of this world— a state of mind that grows closer to his each day.
Another thing I realized throughout this cramming episode of mine was that I didn’t deserve any of the success I had received. I planned to lie (or even manipulate) to get my way, I didn’t do my work right away like God instructs us to (which is what made for all of this stress to happen in the first place), and I was seriously thinking of asking someone to forge the signature in case I wasn’t able to observe in a school. I really (really) really didn’t deserve any of the success I had received, yet He gave it to me anyway. Amazing, isn’t it?
This was grace. As I move forward in my walk with Christ, I realized that that stressful Tuesday was a great blessing in disguise.
God showed me how much a whispered prayer can change everything. :)
Proverbs 3:5-6
5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.
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