So yesterday we celebrated one of my best friend's birthdays. Me and my other best friends have been planning her surprise for quite some time, now so we were so excited for the day to arrive. I couldn't wait to see them all again and celebrate!
..or was I? You see, I got these 2 huge blemishes on my face a few days before the party. I really hate this. I hate how my skin always decides to act up every time something important is coming up. It's always during a party, a prom or a report. -____- Scumbag skin.
So I was really down when I woke up yesterday and it still hadn't faded a little. I tried putting topical ointment on it religiously for the past few nights but it didn't seem to be working... ;___; I really felt like calling in sick or something lol. If only Ban didn't mean so much to me.
I really had no courage to show my face to the world with such a hideous thing in the middle of my cheek. >__< I'm uncomfortable even talking about it, that's why I'm letting it out here. I was having my quite time after grieving over my failed attempts to cure the blemish to take my mind off of things and I stumbled upon this verse.
Proverbs 31:30
Charm is deceitful and beauty is vain, But a woman who fears the LORD, she shall be praised.
It just says so much. Everything I once valued; how I looked in front of other people, is all vain. I know there's nothing wrong in making myself look appealing, but if it holds me back from something, then there's definitely an issue with what I consider important.
God created me beautiful, and I want to believe in that with all of my heart, despite all my insecurities.
I tried to open my eyes to the positive side of reality. 'Charm is deceiving'. I bet I can't find one person who doesn't agree with that. I've fallen for some people because of their charms. It is indeed something we should all look out for. I just realized now how I always said that the guy I would end up with needn't be handsome, but charming. I just realized how charm can captivate me so easily.
At least I know that if someone falls in love with me, it wouldn't be for what I look like, or how perfect my appearance is, because I'm far from those things. At least I know if somebody loves me, he will love the real me. Not my characteristics of being sweet or whatever, just me... my very being.
I thank God he gave me the courage to go to my friend's party. I just dabbed concealer and it got a lot better than I expected. :) Besides, how could I miss this? My friends and I really wanted her to be happy on her birthday cause we knew she was going through a rough time in her life. We brought yellow balloons, her birth flowers, party hats and lots of gifts! I even asked the waitress to sing her a surprise song with the crew (cause I knew she only pretends she hates that but deep down she likes the attention haha!)
We had so much fun together, I cannot put it into words. They're the best bunch I've ever had. They are the only ones who can make me laugh for hours until I'm already dizzy and we all look and act drunk. (Drunk without the alcohol aww yeaaa hahaha one of our great talents!)
Each time we part, we take away a piece of each other. And that's how we get through even if we don't have much friends in college. There's just that special spot each of us have in each others hearts. It's really hard to explain something as deep as that without it coming out to be cliche. It's as if I have the friends I've always wanted. There are a TON of things I can tell you I hate about each of them or things I wish I could change, but I don't even understand why it doesn't matter when I'm with them. All of that just fades away. I just love them so much. :) I love making them happy and showing them the overflow of my heart. Thank you Lord for giving me such an awesome set of friends. :)
